Wow. So its been over a month since I blogged. Bad Brenda. But I have been on twitter. Are you following me??? www.twitter.com/_BrendaNavarro Get on it people. Anywho, within the past month there have been many exciting things. Hmmm where to start...ohhh yes.
1. My sister is expecting a baby! No we dont know the gender yet but im ooober excited to find out. I want her to have a little girl ahhh! But mostley I just want a healthy baby. Cant wait! March 19 he or SHE should be here. <3
2. I recieved my Cosmetologists License for the State of California. Yay! I know right? Doing big thangs'__Now I plan on working as in assistant in a salon to learn so much more. And Im going back to school to get my BA. And im excited...<3
As for now focus is on sisters wedding which is almost two weeks away!Yikes! Im so excited for this big day!!! And a week before that is my boyfriends birthday. Hes turning 22. Old ass. I just figured out his gift which i know hes going to die over...well he better or else..I still need to get a few side gifts...hes spoiled..Ok ill blog later for I have something to do.....much love. xoxoxB
Don't wanna sound full of myself or rude But you ain't looking at no other dudes cause you love me (I'm sorry but.. so sexy) So you think about a chance You find yourself trying to do my dance Maybe cause you love me (Uh, you do it well) So then we tried - singing it slow now Because you weren't used to how fast we touched (fast we touched) Then we locked eyes - and I knew I was in there And I was gonna tear your ass up (tear your ass up)
I know that I'm carrying on, nevermind if I'm showing off I was just fronting (you know I want your babe) I'm ready to bet it all, unless you don't care at all But you know I want your (you should stop fronting babe)
Trying to be the best girlfriend you could be But still you sneak and look at me, and girl I love it Then you give your other girl a show Tell her you gonna call her ass how it was And she's gonna love it (whoa-oh whoa, yeah yeah) So then we tried - singing it slow now Because you weren't used to how fast we touched (fast we touched) Then we locked eyes - and I knew I was in there And I was gonna tear your ass up (tear your ass up)
I know that I'm carrying on, nevermind if I'm showing off I was just fronting (you know I want your babe) I'm ready to bet it all, unless you don't care at all But you know I want your (you should stop fronting babe)
[Jay z:] We got another one Pha-real [Pharrell] [Pharrell:] Dance, oh oh [Jay z:] I call you Pha-real cause you're the truth, ha ha, Young! [Pharrell:] Whoa-oh, oh oh [Jay z:] Uh, yeah [Pharrell:] Dance, oh oh [Jay z:] Yeah, lemme talk to em [Pharrell:] Whoa-oh, oh oh [Jay z:] I'm a keep it real
Everytime your name was brought up I would act all nonchalant in front of an audience Like if you was just another shorty I put the naughty on But uh, truth be told you do me for a loop, this Hov I'm too old to be fronting when I'm feeling Denzel And you acting like you ain't appealing but you are Stunting like you ain't my only girl but you are (I was just fronting) I'm ready to stop when you are
I know that I'm carrying on, nevermind if I'm showing off I was just fronting (you know I want your babe) I'm ready to bet it all, unless you don't care at all But you know I want your (you should stop fronting babe)
Bounce wit me, wit me, wit me wit me Can you bounce wit me, bounce wit me, wit me wit me Can you bounce wit me, bounce wit me, ge-gi-gi-gi-gi-gi Can you bounce wit me, bounce wit me, ye-ye-yeah
, ya-ya-yah-yeah bounce wit me, bounce wit me Ge-gi, ge-gi-gi-gi-geyeah bounce wit me, bounce wit me
Verse One: Jay-Z
Can I hit in the MORNING without givin you half of my dough And even worse if I was broke would you WANT ME? If I couldn't get you finer things like all of them diamond rings bitches KILL FOR would you STILL ROLL? If we couldn't see the sun risin off the shore of Thailand would you RIDE THEN, if I wasn't DRIVIN? If I wasn't ah, eight figure nigga by the name of Jigga would you come around me or would you clown me? If I couldn't flow futuristic would ya put your two lips on my wood and kiss it - could ya see yourself with a nigga workin harder than 9 to 5 contend with six, two jobs to survive, or do you need a BALLA? So you can shop and tear the MALL UP? Brag, tell your friends what I BOUGHT YA If you couldn't see yourself with a nigga when his dough is low Baby girl, if this is so, yo..
Chorus: repeat 2X
[Jay-Z] Can I get a FUCK YOU to these bitches from all of my niggaz who don't love hoes, they get no dough [Amil] Can I get a WOOP WOOP to these niggaz from all of my bitches who don't got love for niggaz without dubs?
[Amil] Now can you bounce wit me, uhh [Jay-Z] Bounce wit me, bounce wit me Can ya can ya can ya bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Amil] Uh uh.. Major Coins, Amil-lion [Jay-Z] Bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Amil] Uhh, yo bounce wit me [Jay-Z] Can ya can ya can ya bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Amil] Yeah, uh-uh uh uh
Verse Two: Amil
You ain't gotta be rich but FUCK THAT How we gonna get around your BUS PASS Fo' I put this pussy on your mustache Can you AFFORD ME, my niggaz breadwinners, never corny Ambition makes me, so horny Not the fussin and the frontin If you got nuttin, baby boy, you betta "Git Up, Git Out and get somethin" Shit! I like a, lot of P-rada, Alize and Vodka Late nights, candlelight, then I tear the cock up Get it up I put it down everytime it pop up, huh I got to snap em, let it loose, then I knock ya Feel the juice, then I got ya, when you produce a rocka I let you meet momma and introduce you to poppa My, coochie remains in a Gucci name Never test my patience nigga, I'm high maintenance HIGH CLASS, if you ain't rollin, bypass If you ain't holdin, I dash yo
Chorus
[Jay-Z] Now can you bounce for me, bounce for me [Ja] Uhh [Jay-Z] Can ya can ya can ya bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Ja] Uhh! [Jay-Z] Gi-gi-gi-geyeah-geyeah [Jay-Z] Can ya bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Ja] UHH! [Jay-Z] Gi-gi-gi-gi can ya bounce wit me, bounce wit me [Ja] Uhh! Yeah
Verse Three: Ja (Rule)
It ain't even a question how my dough flows, I'm good to these bad hoes Like my bush wet and undry like damp clothes What y'all niggaz don't know, it's eazy, to pimp a hoe Bitches betta have my, money fo' sho' Before they go, runnin they mouth, promotin half I be diggin they, back out, go 'head, let it out I fucks with my gat out, bounce and leave a hundred Makin em feel, slutted even if they don't want it It's been SO LONG since I met a chick ain't on my tips but then I'm DEAD WRONG, when I tell em BE GONE So HOLD ON to the feelin of flossin and platinum cause from NOW ON, you can witness Ja the I-CON with hoodies and TIMBS ON, cause I thugs my bitches VeVe, studs my bitches, then we rob bitch niggaz I'm talkin bout straight figures if you here, you wit us If not Boo, you know what, I still fucked you
Chorus
[Jay-Z] Now can you bounce wit me, bounce wit me Ge-gi, ge-gi-gi-gi bounce wit me, bounce wit me Wit me wit me wit me bounce wit me, bounce wit me Bounce, bitch, bounce.. wit me wit me wit me wit me Can ya bounce wit me wit me Ge-gi, uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh Uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh uh-huh uh Can ya bounce wit me bounce wit me Geyeah Geyeah
After all of the times that we've tried I found out we were living a lie And after all of this love that we made I found out you don't love me the same
The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you
I woke up kinda early today And something told me from that moment It wouldn't be the same It felt like you were hiding something But I didn't push it I didn't complain or say nothin I triedacted like I didn't see it Cause deep down I knew I didn't want to believe it
But there it was, it was you and her You left your sidekick on the nightstand And I read
Everything you did, and everything you said and And now I'm standing here looking like damn.. I thought it was you and I Now I all I got to say is why?
After all of the time that we've tried I found out we were living a lie And after all of this love that we made I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you
I notice now, that when I am around You be trying to lock the door [The Way I Love You lyrics onhttp://www.metrolyrics.com]
Whispering on the phone Now wait a minute since we been in this house You ain't never did this before Tell me what's this about?
I tried to sit and say to myself This here is too good he don't want nothing else But there it was, it was you and her You left your credit card receipt inside the beamer babe
Everything you bought her, and everything you spending Now I'm standing here once again I thought it was you and I Now I all I have to say is why?
After all of the times that we've tried I found out we were living a lie And after all of this love that we made I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you
You Lied, You lied, Oh Why? Why'd you have to lie to me? Why'd you have to lie to me? Why'd you have to lie to me? Why?
After all of the times that we've tried I found out we were living a lie And after all of this love that we made I know now you don't love me the same
The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you The way that I love The way that I love you
Im obsessed with this song_well mostley just Kanyes part..especially when he says my name!!
_enjoy...
and your welcome in advance ;)
I got a big ego, (hahaha) Im such a big ego, (hahaha) I got a big, (hahaha), Ego, She love my big, (hahaha), Ego, So stroke my big, (hahaha), Ego, I like to joke around a little bit but here we go, Welcome to the wonderful world, Of go play the earl coz, Everything I throw up, blow up, Talking to the girl, She said, know what, grow up, You nasty, I dont understand why they trippin, If you ask me, Flow is just as nice as, I admit the propane, I just spit, probably, Just raise the gas prices, Everybody in the club, Try and get as fresh as me, What you want dog, Trying to stay recession free, And spit, refreshly, When I rock the stadium, You probably get sweaty, You should bring a extra tee, Now Im standing next to Jay, Who standing next to B, You coulda been anywhere in the world, But youre here with me, Thats good for ego, Me and my ego, And it go wherever we go, My ego is my imaginary friend, He was with me when I was only imagining, I had dreams of the league, On day I play Coby, I walk up the puff and he already know me, Coulda let the dream killers, kill my self esteem, Or use the arrogance as a steam that power my dreams, And my ego,
It's on baby, let's get lost, You don't need to call into work 'cause you're the boss, For real, want you to show me how you feel, I consider myself lucky, that's a big deal, Why? Well, you got the key to my heart, But you ain't gonna need it, I'd rather you open up my body, And show me secrets, you didn't know was inside, No need for me to lie,
It's too big, it's too wide, It's too strong, it won't fit, It's too much, it's too tough, He talk like this 'cause he can back it up, He got a big ego, such a huge ego, I love his big ego, it's too much, He walk like this 'cause he can back it up,
Usually I'm humble, right now I don't choose, You can leave with me or you could have the blues, Some call it arrogant, I call it confident, You decide when you find on what I'm working with, Damn I know I'm killing you with them legs, Better yet them thighs, Matter a fact it's my smile or maybe my eyes, Boy you a site to see, kind of something like me,
It's too big, it's too wide, It's too strong, it won't fit, It's too much, it's too tough, I talk like this 'cause I can back it up, I got a big ego, such a huge ego, But he love my big ego, it's too much, I walk like this 'cause I can back it up,
It's too big, it's too wide, It's too strong, it won't fit, It's too much, it's too tough, He talk like this 'cause he can back it up, He got a big ego, such a huge ego, I love his big ego, it's too much, He walk like this 'cause he can back it up,
Ego so big, you must admit, I got every reason to feel like I'm that bitch, Ego so strong, if you ain't know, I don't need no beat, I can sing it with piano.
and its crazy how this picture feels like last month when it was over 2 yrs ago!!
and now here I am planning for her bridal and bachlorette party...
and getting ready for the wedding...crazy how time passes by so fast....
wasnt it yesterday that we were talking about stupid bos in high school and now were planning a wedding and im discussing what me and michael are planning to do within the next couple months and years....
I didnt tell anyone not even any family members...wether they remembered or not.
And i must admit I should of said something.
She past away in the end of January.
And it was a shock.
I never saw it coming not that any of us did.
I know shes in a better place now. I dont like to say she past away, shes dead, or anything.
I refer it to as shes sleeping and is now resting.
I cant admit it to myself yet and i dont think i will for a long time.
Theres alot of things i wish i could of done before she went to sleep.
Should coulda woulda.
And i think thats what hurts the most... y didnt i do it?!!
ugh.
I remember crying in my boyfriends arms and telling him how she wont see my sister get married this year, i cant tell her i graduated beauty school, she wont see my brother grow up into this man that hes becoming in to overnight...she wont see our kids grow up...but after hours of thoughts and many many tears, I see that she is watching us, just up above. Shes here in spirit and thats all that matters.
Im glad to know that im the only grandchild that carry her last name.
Brenda NAVARRO Alvayero.
I decided even when i marry i will drop the alvayero and keep the Navarro forever.
<3
Happy Birthday Mama' Louisa.
I hope you are free of pain and resting in peace.
You raised 9 children and countless grandchildren and great grandchildren.
RIP.
Michael Jackson...i will forever "rock with you"
Farrah....every haircut full of layers is dedicated to you!
starting a week ago...well lets just say things didnt change like i hoped so....
and it hurt when i found out the news...
REAL BAD.
i thought maybe when i get home ill take a nap since i hadnt slept in over 24hrs and when i woke up i would feeel better.
NOPE!!
the feeling was only worst...
and i only felt more sick than i had when i had woken up at 4:30 in the morning.
the best word to describe how i felt was USELESS.
and no matter who text me, called me or talked to me...nothing that was being said was making me feel better. Nothing. I know im not the only one to go throught it...
but i took it to heart....deeep in there...
I know i worked hard to get what i wanted...no one can tell me i didnt....
it happened for a reason...but i wish i knew what the reason was.
I wanted it just as much or more as anyone else in that room who had to go through 6 hrs of torture!
for the last week ive been hiding behind smiles and saying "next time" ill get it..
but im been going crazy thinking about it.....
and one thought has lead to another...and another and yes another.
Im 20 yrs old blah blah blah i still have my life to live blah blah blah...
but other than giving it a second try my focus is everything in life now...not just whats coming up....
i need to take it to another level i just dont know how...im working on it and its really hard.
im just taking every breath by breath, and literallt hoping that every step i take is down the right road.....
im obsessed with how long her hair is....i think i only watch the show just to see her hair...its so long and its curly in the picture...when its straight its even more beautifullllll i have a while to go but im almost there seeeee....
First im only doing this because a friend of mine posted a birthday wish list and she had so much fun doint it. So i decided to do it as well. Dont judge me....hahahahaha.
Ready....here we go!
1.
Its a sephora make up brush belt. its beautiful and only two hundred and something dollars! hahaha ONLY!
2.
A bag of gummy bears!!
3.
Andre Either....yummmy!!!
4.
a wheel for my wiii!!!!!!
5.
disneyland!!!! now now did u really think it wasnt going to be on here?!
6.
this shirt...small or medium...
7.
i want to find the little mermaid.
she exsists!
8.
DINERO!!!!
9.
kisses on the cheek from everyone who loves me!
10.I want to go see my grandpa.
11.
Tickets to see my boys!
12.
either of these earings.....i really like the hearts!!
it would go perfectly with my juicy couture necklace and braclet!!
So today I decided to do a little spring cleaning.
I literally took everything out of my closet and decided to throw away everything i dont wear and things that i kept because of the past but decided fuck it. We leave it in the past for a reason lets keep it there!
My next step is pictures.
hahahaha maybe ill have fun and use a lighter.
PYRO!
It was funny organizing all my clothes and shoes.
Throwing at boxes,books, clothes, shoes, and jsut bullshit that for some odd reason I kept.
As i was going through it all I realize how many good and bad moments I had in my past with certain people.
Old "best friends"....ex boyfriend.....and the times i wasnt going through a good time.
Mom always says no to throw things away....though situations may have not ended right doesnt mean you forget. Its something you learned from and most of all grew from.
True.
But atthe same time why keep things that at one point that person made you cry.
Treated you like no one.
And didnt appreciate you for who you are.
I left it at...
People who were once important people in my life..and i loved and cared for...
welll im going to leave it at that.
To say mean things isnt making you a better person.
And if they have the nerve to speak about me on bad terms
well than im already better than them.
One thing i have learned is...
if you cant say something to someones face than dont say it to begin with.
And trust when i say if ive said it behind your back I have NO PROBLEM saying it to your face.
Tired as fuckk and all i wanted was a nap and no the boyfriend would not leave me alone in the car.
BRAT!
We finnaly arrived and went straight to the beach before Jr got back.
I really do love the city of San Diego.
Its so peaceful and clean.
Theres hardley ever traffic.
The house out there are nice.
But when it came to talkin about me and the boyfriend moving out there in the future...one thing that we would absolutley hate about being out there other than not being near our family is.....
HELLO!
THE DODGERS!
Living in San Diego were in Padres Territory.
BLAH!
Better than Anaheim or Giants. Thats for sure. hahaha.
Being out there really makes you realize how much you take for granted living in the "valley".
you never realize just how your drive to the Dodger Stadium, Hollywood or Downtown Los Angeles or for that matter DISNEYLAND. Its 15 min to and hour drive. WERE SPOILED!
But being in San Diego was amazing.
And raising a family there makes sense.
But me and the boyfriends career is out here in LA.
Im tired as fuck! Woke up at 530 becasue my eye was hurting again.
Couldnt go back to sleep.
I went to escuela and got there at 9 ish.
Yeah yeah i was suppose to be there at 830 ohhh suck it'
Was there allllllllllllllllllllllllllll day and didnt leave till 1030.
And im pooped and grumpy and more irritated than ever.
I realized that im getting to the point where i dont care anymore.
And i honestly want to give up.
No not on school.
Ive busted my ass to much to give up two months away from graduation.
Other things.
Other people.
Other feelings.
To let go is different but ill be backing off thats for sure.
I dont have the energy for it anymore.
And im done venting about it.
Today i made a payment to the escuela. Bye bye $100.
Little by little i owe less and im that much closer to my diploma.
I started focusing on stateboard.
Im really nervous.
And want that damn paper more than youll ever know.
Its a bitch trying to meomorize all that shit...
but i keep reminding myself wat you do in the test is what you do at school....
it should come easily...but than again your in a room for 4hrs being tested on 13 different clients not knowing what your going to get, you cant say a damn word and the lady at the front of the room determined wether i get a license or not!
Than a 2 hour written test.... millions of people have done it before y the fuck am i over reacting....
i guess hmmmmm
I WANT IT SO BAD AND I DONT WANT TO LET ANYTHING GET IN THE WAY OF IT!
But like mom always says when im stressed ...
she grabs my face and says "think positive thoguhts"
to bad she wont be in the room with me telling me that...
but my sister will do shes just as much as a pusher as moms' is.
1. That will be the day i drive up to Marinello park go straight to administration and sign my papers and get my diploma of completing 1600hrs of Beauty School and im done!
2.By that date i would have already been done makin up hours.
3.I will already be 20.
4.(Crossing fingers)Hopefully i will have some clue of when my state board test!
5. Work full time and study study study practice practice practice for my stateboard.
6. Move out && start school to finish getting my AA.
What do people really think im not going back to school?! You dumb fuck'
and the best thing i will be able to say is "IM NOT A BEAUTY SCHOOL DROP OUT!"
if someone sings that song to me one more time ill kick you hahaha.
