I dont have time.
Im to lazy.
And shut it'
hahahah.
First off.
Im tired as fuck! Woke up at 530 becasue my eye was hurting again.
Couldnt go back to sleep.
I went to escuela and got there at 9 ish.
Yeah yeah i was suppose to be there at 830 ohhh suck it'
Was there allllllllllllllllllllllllllll day and didnt leave till 1030.
And im pooped and grumpy and more irritated than ever.
I realized that im getting to the point where i dont care anymore.
And i honestly want to give up.
No not on school.
Ive busted my ass to much to give up two months away from graduation.
Other things.
Other people.
Other feelings.
To let go is different but ill be backing off thats for sure.
I dont have the energy for it anymore.
And im done venting about it.
Today i made a payment to the escuela. Bye bye $100.
Little by little i owe less and im that much closer to my diploma.
I started focusing on stateboard.
Im really nervous.
And want that damn paper more than youll ever know.
Its a bitch trying to meomorize all that shit...
but i keep reminding myself wat you do in the test is what you do at school....
it should come easily...but than again your in a room for 4hrs being tested on 13 different clients not knowing what your going to get, you cant say a damn word and the lady at the front of the room determined wether i get a license or not!
Than a 2 hour written test.... millions of people have done it before y the fuck am i over reacting....
i guess hmmmmm
I WANT IT SO BAD AND I DONT WANT TO LET ANYTHING GET IN THE WAY OF IT!
But like mom always says when im stressed ...
she grabs my face and says "think positive thoguhts"
to bad she wont be in the room with me telling me that...
but my sister will do shes just as much as a pusher as moms' is.
Im off to bed to dream.
And relax my eyes and body.
Best regards,
Brenda Navarro Alvayero
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