Mama..

So this past weekend was my grandmas birthday....

I didnt tell anyone not even any family members...wether they remembered or not.

And i must admit I should of said something.

She past away in the end of January.

And it was a shock.

I never saw it coming not that any of us did.

I know shes in a better place now. I dont like to say she past away, shes dead, or anything.

I refer it to as shes sleeping and is now resting.

I cant admit it to myself yet and i dont think i will for a long time.

Theres alot of things i wish i could of done before she went to sleep.

Should coulda woulda.

And i think thats what hurts the most... y didnt i do it?!!

ugh.

I remember crying in my boyfriends arms and telling him how she wont see my sister get married this year, i cant tell her i graduated beauty school, she wont see my brother grow up into this man that hes becoming in to overnight...she wont see our kids grow up...but after hours of thoughts and many many tears, I see that she is watching us, just up above. Shes here in spirit and thats all that matters.

Im glad to know that im the only grandchild that carry her last name.

Brenda NAVARRO Alvayero.

I decided even when i marry i will drop the alvayero and keep the Navarro forever.

<3

Happy Birthday Mama' Louisa.

I hope you are free of pain and resting in peace.

You raised 9 children and countless grandchildren and great grandchildren.

RIP.

Michael Jackson...i will forever "rock with you"

Farrah....every haircut full of layers is dedicated to you!